Hallways and Key Rings.

For you sister, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mn-FFjIbo8 I see your face in my memories through hallways and key rings. I’d pass by your bedroom, see you with headphones on, dancing. I’d go to my room at only age seven and dance to the same beat until age eleven. It was fun, when we took the headphones off, learnContinue reading “Hallways and Key Rings.”

🔆Frozen Son🔆

I come to you as your daughter, Powerful Almighty. You are such a loving Father, all the ways that you smite me. I bow to you as a friend. In search of purpose, to make amends. I truly would never mean to offend…. Maybe simply, reprimand? Time I called you down, you sacred host. IContinue reading “🔆Frozen Son🔆”

Cemeteries

in the cemetery now I Rest In Pieces I’ll hold my breath and gouge out my eyes to fill your lungs with the air that I breathe. Can’t face your headstone.. I’d rather lose sight. in the cemetery now I Rest In Pieces cut out my heart bleed on her grave every night. I’ll cutContinue reading “Cemeteries”

While I’m Alive

Inside “The Natural State” I roam in a natural state of divine seclusion where I argue my fate. Within a foggy illusion beyond this blurry mountain range, I keep focus on a town drenched in baptismal acid rains. And STILL, I can see much clearly. Naturally my bones can breathe. I harness the power here,Continue reading “While I’m Alive”

My Witches

A run-on sentence aka…..my mind. Nobody: “Whatcha thinkin’ bout, Steph?” Me: I can’t pin it exactly when I became so lame but I didn’t know I had the keys to this and I really can’t blame anybody for these silent wars that are waged between my brain in the crevices my synapses focus more onContinue reading “My Witches”

ebb and flow…

There she goes walking past staring crows. Clocking skulls and crossbones row after row. She can feel em’ in er’ blood, She can hear em’ in her soul, Keep that good book open, Keep your pretty mouth closed. Don’t rock the boat. You don’t have to think, just stay afloat. And listen now girl, don’tContinue reading “ebb and flow…”

Us All Along.

  I opened the double doors to the outside.. The sun is bright First time I saw myself in that kind of light… Backs away further Can’t bear the weight of that steeple..  Fooled the whole time Thinking I was draped in white Footsteps backwards away from the people… No. She’s dark inside..and built byContinue reading “Us All Along.”

Grow on Me- Reblog

My big sister at https://singingovermybones.com/   wrote this…I feel it deeply. After deconstructing, I can still agree with the “good book” on one thing- “Return to the ground because out of it you were taken; you are dust, and to dust you shall return.” https://singingovermybones.com/2019/06/24/grow-from-me/  Grow on Me What will I become? Buried under earth, dirtContinue reading “Grow on Me- Reblog”

A Poppy Seed. (Deconstructing my faith)

Don’t do it for them. Sharing your life, your words. If they prove to not appreciate your value stop giving it to them. Find yourself without them. Find your worth your way, without their input, their likes, fake comments. Cutting eyes and sharp smiles mask their scowling judgement, riddled with their own insecurities and nowContinue reading “A Poppy Seed. (Deconstructing my faith)”