🔆Frozen Son🔆

I come to you as your daughter,
Powerful Almighty.
You are such a loving Father,
all the ways that you smite me.
I bow to you as a friend.
In search of purpose,
to make amends.
I truly would never mean to offend….
Maybe simply, reprimand?

Time I called you down,
you sacred host.
I need to see your face,
my Holy Ghost.
I’m losing my faith,
and it’s starting to show..

I wanted to believe you were my home.

Strange you like to tease me
from your ether hiding place.
Your absence here is the only thing steady,
still I beg to see your face.
My blood has frozen cold,
standing still in your Son’s rays.
.. I can’t help but ask him, “Why?…
Why let them use your name?”
A sacrificial lamb? Or a REBEL? He didn’t want the blame…
Never even cared for the BIG religion game…
but it’s not about him……… you’re the focus in this frame…

I don’t want to be right,
I don’t need to be saved
But I’ll search for a light,
within the wrath of your disdain.
In every word…
On every page…

Honestly, I understand,
If you’ve turned and walked away.
Both of us are quite familiar
with the loss of being betrayed…

It’s a peculiar relationship,
the way we behave.
I’m like a doll in your arms and we tango on my grave.
As I poetically taunt you, your silence remains..
Remind me Father? Son?
Are you one in the same?
Is it really about love?
Or really more about shame?

People will talk,
but what many don’t see,
I prayed, so devout, until almost 33
I’ve begged you,
I’ve knelt down for years on my knees,
Thanks a lot for raining down and destroying me.

You know like I do,
we fear my fight
because it frees.

above the trees
Rain down your love
and shatter me.

God and I have weird ways. Have a good weekend Loves!!!!🖤🖤🖤

Published by Stephspoetryandsuch

Your girls gotta write that dark poetry ya'll🖤😜🖤

12 thoughts on “🔆Frozen Son🔆

    1. Exactly River and thank you!❤️ It’s a back and forth battle…..I pray and then I say, “Steph, you’re talking to yourself.” But hopefully God and I have an understanding. He knows I’m always questioning his mysterious ways.😜😜

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  1. I hear your thinking here Steph, told to have faith without cause… I think there is some kind of understanding and we need to find out own peace as well. It never just comes.
    Hope you’re good 🙂

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  2. I appreciate your honesty about religion here, Stephanie. I’ve met a lot of people who have doubts about what they believe, and not all of them would want to spell it out, even as poetically as you have here. But take heart! Many more than you have doubts about religion, and have spent their lives pouring out their hearts and minds on paper. Might I suggest reading some of the great thinkers of the past, like St. Augustine or Thomas Aquinas? I’ve heard it said that Church tradition is one of the ways we understand our God, and perhaps it could help. 🤷🏽‍♂️

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    1. First off thank you so so much for taking the time to understand my perspective and respecting my journey. I really appreciate individuals that can put all judgement aside in order to connect and communicate with others. I admire that and I admire YOU for that. I very much agree St. Augustine and Aquinas are both brilliant minds.❤️ I’ll definitely look more into their writings and really let myself dive into their understandings. Thanks for the suggestions and Im thankful for your presence here!❤️❤️❤️I hope you have a wonderful day!!!!!

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