I wanna go.

I wanna go somewhere
to a place I’ve never been.
I wanna stand on my own
to breathe the native wind.
I wanna break away from everything I have ever known…..
I wanna feel the breeze out there
to welcome me back home.
I wanna hear their sacred hymns
dance throughout the leaves.
I wanna find myself somewhere,
I wanna live in peace.
I wanna spend the rest of my days,
in the meadows roaming around.
My body is aching I’m tired and frankly
I’m lost and don’t wanna be found.

I watch myself as I try to blend in,
live up to these stagnant roles.

Within the inside
Begging to the outside,
I don’t want to get stuck in this mold.
But here I am, in the midst of it all
While my mind, it’s gone every second.
All the while,
I try to keep up,
In the end, I know I’ll regret it..
As much as I want it,
It seems I’m unwilling,
to surrender to the Almighty Else.
Now I’m going to rely and depend on somebody.. and somebody is my own goddamn self.

I’ll take the first leap
I’ll swim beyond deep
From the sea of society.
Find me in the wild-wood,
It flows deep in my blood.
And inside there I’ll die living free..

-🖤Steph 🖤

Published by Stephspoetryandsuch

Your girls gotta write that dark poetry ya'll🖤😜🖤

27 thoughts on “I wanna go.

    1. It’s like shackles on the prisoners ankle… As much as I want to avoid it….it’s attached to me. I miss your blog so much Jim, I was thinking about it today!! Im in desperate need of enlightenment. I need to hop on over to binge read as soon as these crazy littles go to sleep tonight!!😩😩😩 Hope you’re doing wonderful Jim.🖤♥️

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      1. Last time I was there it was during the Pasadena fires and I worked three weeks as paramedic. Damn traffic! I kept getting stuck in ElMonte at night and my shifts would never end. Did I mention the damn traffic?
        In all fairness though, my unobstructed view here is only 358°. Hehe. I can see a house about two miles away if I try.

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